Paint Yourself.....

He is here in the heart of my thoughts always chasing me to the darkest places, to the nadir of my existence. I ran in the fear of getting naked with my thoughts. I ran thinking of my escape, fighting for a breath of my own. I tried to ignore his mere existence only to find myself losing me more in him. I failed, I gave up, I’m so deep in the blood of my broken heart I wished to paint myself black to be his shadow, I wished to paint myself as a cool breeze singing my love to him. I wished to paint myself a corner of his heart to be in the rhythm of his heart beat. But I painted myself invisible to come out of his life just listening to him his newly found love.